When I was little, probably about elementary school age, I wanted to be a teacher.  I know it's a cliche' but I do believe my teachers inspired me.  I looked up to them.  It seems so silly but so innocently sweet now to look back on it. I remember holding "class" in my bedroom, where my bed were the desks, I would cram my coloring books full of school papers like the teachers had when they would return from making copies for the class.  I think in my heart I still hold that want in my heart, however the real world is never as easy as play.  I still may teach once I get my nursing degree, we shall see.  I find it fascinating that the ideals we hold as children can be with us through adult hood, and hold our heartstrings so tightly.

For me, I don't believe it is a single emotion that I struggle with, as much as it is my own personality and flaws.  Not that I find everything I do absolutely dreadful, but quite on the contrary.  I, unfortunately at times, feel that I do things right and that everyone else does them incorrectly, or not up to my standards.  It's not that I don't make mistakes or overlook things.  I absolutely do.  I am human after all.  I also believe it is ok to make mistakes occasionally.  Everyone does.  But for some people, it seems they just don't learn from their mistakes.  I also have some sort of a mental block.  I feel that if I can do something, anything in particular, that someone else, anyone else, should be able to do the same thing at the same caliber as I.  I am trying to learn to cope with this one in particular.  I certainly am unable to run long distances(or short for that matter) so in that respect I keep trying to remind myself of this example.  But it is so difficult.  Fat people can't run a marathon and some people just can't seem to learn from one certain mistake.  It is a work in progress.  This example doesn't make the mistake any more pallatable, but I'm working on it.

If I had the support (financial, emotional, etc.) I would quit my job, quit school and travel.  If money were not an issue, I would love to see the world. No cell phone and no watch (except for arrival/departure times at the airports). I'd like to spend some time in Hawaii, some in Norway, Iceland, Africa, India, Japan and Australia, just to name a few.  I would like to travel through all of the terrains, climates, see all of the differences in foods, bugs, traditions and cultures.  No matter where we come from or where we are going, we are all essentially the same.  We experience the same emotions, we think in similiar fashion.  We have the same body parts.